caffeine

this morning i arrived at work an hour earlier than usual. same as yesterday. my wife and i worked out a new schedule so that i'm not taking care of the baby for quite so long in the morning, so i can get to work on time. the commute is better, and i think i'm getting more work done, and i can leave early if i want to, or i can stay and work late but still get home before dinner. i'm not waking up any earlier than ususal, but for some reason this new schedule has made me more tired. to make matters worse, i started sneezing like crazy this morning. in my junk drawer at my desk i have benadryl (along with other assorted medicines, napkins, stamps, ketchup packets, salt, etc) i popped two out of the blister pack, and washed them down with coffee. i was almost finished drinking my big mug of home-made coffee at the time, so i thought i would be OK. i am not OK. i am a zombie. a special drug-induced kind of drowsiness. so i just went to the drink machine and got a free company-provided caffeine hit: instant earl grey tea. it's good. i think it's helping. soon i will go to lunch and drink soda too. i guess caffeine is an essential part of my life these days. i would kill for a cigarette.