a gamble

i took a gamble last night and stayed up after the kids went to sleep at 8:00... and did bills and my taxes; instead of going to sleep while i had the chance. it payed off. i did work for 2 hours and got stuff done... and the baby slept until 12:00, so I got 2 hours sleep. then again slept from 1:00 till 4:00, and 5:00 till 6:15. if we can do it like that every night then i'll be pretty good. i need 2 hours of no-kid time every night to get daddy stuff done. even if it means i'm missing out on sleepy time!

a glimpse...

(from correspondence) thank you very very much for coming over on saturday. even though e.w. was pretty exhausted and cranky, i think he nonetheless enjoyed seeing you guys. since my brother's family was all sick, it really was the highlight of his easter weekend as far as visiting-relatives was concerned.

futhermore, of course, i was happy to see you guys too. i wish i could have gone to billy's red room; but as you can imagine, with feedings and what not every two hours at night, that's precious sleep that i can't do without! hopefully, soon, L. and i will be back in the saddle again as far as being able to take night's off to go out while the other stays home and runs the circus. then, we'll be able to meet up more easily when you're in town...

until then, it's me and L. taking turns watching CNN, conan o'brien or infomercials with a hunrgy baby in our arms, etc.

song titles

"it's time to call the rainbows in"
"rusty insides"
"it takes a monster to remember"
"counterfeit angels"

"the taxi of the north"
"do you think it's gonna rain?"
"(the voice of) shattered anne"
"the travelling tongue"

"(she plays) with an uncertain gaze"
"till something aches and nothing makes sense"
"how i remember your coat"
"i took a pen to the gods"

"the kiss of the red umbrella"
"lightning scent" or "a hint of lightning"
"find your inner city"
"plagues of egypt play dough set: locust fun factory"

"i've never been this sorry before"
"i want that big shine"
"everything heaven wanted to be"
"i depend on gin"

"maybe i can change for the better,
but baby, i can't change the weather"

video idea for the carlsonics

we're making a video for "senator trudge and the clap division", i'm talking with a director in L.A.

tell brian and julie, so they can get casted!

sure, dude

i think a video made up entirely of brian, shirtless, drunk in a cliché bare, dirty apartment bedroom (mattress on the floor with like on crumpled sheet; clothes, CD's and tapes everywhere; magazine photos all over the walls), jumping/dancing/flailing to the music would make the most amazing video ever.

whoah!

with julie in the room, dressed as a china doll of sorts, in a traditional qípáo, with face makeup- expressionless and unintimidated by brian, but nonetheless trying to stay out of his way... occasionally tiptoeing form one corner of the room to the other, trying not to get sprayed with beer.

maybe in the end Julie can shea a tear

ah, you know, i thought about making brian entice her to take a sip of his drink or something, like alice-in-wonderland... she slips into a psychedelic trance, just in time for the breakdown/fx solo.

cool! good vibe

in keeping with the trance theme, brian starts out dancing in his room, but then it flashes to him dancing with her in front of various LA landmarks, then at the end brian expires on his bed, in julie's arms, and it fades out with her holding him in an archetypal "pieta" pose, which artsy types will recognize...

Of course! Amazing. That shit made me laugh

i think we're onto something here...

solo project concept

Did I ever tell you my idea for my next musical project?...

I am The Devil

The Devil's first EP will be called "Get a Job"

The Devil: "Get a Job"

so you'll wear a red suit, right?

No live shows.

The Devil's too busy; this is just a side-thing.

i mean, in general, to get into character.

Hmmm

Well, I'm The Devil after all.

But I'm not The Devil, y'know?

So it's hard to answer your question

so, what i'm hearing is that you're wearing red.

STOP PUTTING WORDS IN THE DEVIL'S MOUTH*

* The Devil's mouth is an intricate "tiered-world" consisting of 5
distinct "Doom Planes"-- Fire, Burn, Doom, Scalding, and Chrysanthemum

so, the devil's mouth is red?

NO!

brooding but with cookies

work sucks. the whole project i am working on may get outsourced to a contract research company, because my department can't get it's act together and come up with the resources to do the program- not enough trianed people. so, potentially, all of these preparations i have been doing will amount to nothing, in that i will be all ramped up and trained to do a project that we will farm out. it's not official yet, but the writing is on the wall. my job is not in jepraody, but it may still set me back career-wise because i have to start over in training. my boss is trying to assure me otherwise. in stead i'll just start out doing somehting else in a different area... therefore i intended to be all brooding and pissed-off-looking today, so that no one will bother me... but in stead i just gave everyone in the
immediate vicinity of my cubicle a home-made cookie. a "10 o'clock cookie".

the world is overrated

Weekend plans?

take care of the baby and e.w., day and night; give the wife a rest, if that's possible.

Cool...i should have guessed :)
of course, of course. i was also being a little sarcastic i guess... hopefully we'll do somehting other than just feed, change, burp, and play with the kids in the livingroom all day! like maybe we'll get in the car and go... out... into the world!

Eh, the world is overrated!

good weird

life is F'd up. just the other day i was doing something with e.w., that i did with my dad. i used to play in my mom & dad's closet when he would get ready for work in the morning. i would always open up his shoe shining kit and play with it. my dad showed me how to shine shoes, since i always took it out anyway. once i was good at it he would pay me like a dollar to shine each pair- probably just to make me feel accomplished or whatever.

so the other day while i was getting ready for work, evan wanted to just be near me so there he was int he closet. he usually just "helps" me pick out a belt and stuff. but this day he took out the shoe shining kit. i bent down to make sure he didn't get polish all over himself... and i started showing him how to buff a shoe. he was really into it, and he was buffing my shoe very carefully in no time. he was very proud of himself, and i thanked him and told him he did a great job. it was just weird. good-weird. i liked it.